Gray?

It is widely said that loneliness is for your meditation. But it doesn’t really work to every one. Meditation is not the prelude of proceeding. It is like a seed, a promising symble of life. The seed has to sprout, to show its baby leaves, to grow up with sunlight as well as raindrops and to blossom eventually. So to say, we should gain a fruit of the seed, otherwise, the meditation is just in vain and a waste of time. Just looking at myself. I hv spent plenty time in thinking about myself. Seriously and frankly speaking, i am killing my finite life. I hv lost courage to face up to the adversity and withstand the loathsome elements involved with my common life.
Scanning through the friend-list in my QQ, i find no one to chat with.
Is everybody fallible? When things turn nasty, i am on the road to be a mummy with body remained but soul gone